How do you know it is time for a transition in your life? You can wait for your surroundings to tell you. You can wait until you get sick, literally, of doing what you are doing. Or - you can listen.
I call this BIG LISTENING. This hearing of a voice has been with me all my life. It often starts just with a word, the name of a place, an action, that keeps rising up in the depth of my gut, where my subconscious brain must sit in my body. Usually, I reject it, don’t think it is possible, don’t want it to be. The older I get, the more I have learned to let the voice ripen until I “know” it is something I need to do.
This is how the John Muir trail entered my life last fall in a very tiny, fleeting thought. After walking home the length of Oregon, I really had no need to do something like that again and had settled for shorter, easier to manage sixty mile hikes. The JMT persisted through the winter, through a kayaking trip in Mexico.
I asked myself why do it? I still don’t have the answer. I can make up answers, but I won’t know until I do it, what hiking the JMT will be about for me. I trust this process now and look forward to learning something about life, my life in this go-around. Hesitantly I put out the idea to my community always giving myself permission to “nix” the whole thing. I got response from others, critical information about permits etc, several hiking partners interested in joining me. The important details, the support needed, always come when I listen to the voice.
I have not always known that the support is there and made the process more difficult for myself. More difficult than necessary. By surrendering to the bigger force that moves through me, I let myself be part of a bigger universe, a bigger ever changing world. A world that transforms me and shows me new things about living. Hiking this challenging trail will give birth to the ME I am still becoming.
Do you have a voice inside you that needs listening to?